Hey, Dragons! I’m going to start off with an apology. Week one of Freeletics was great! It was fun, it was challenging, and it made me feel excited to workout again. Week 2, however, was impossible. The pendulum swung completely the other way and went from motivating and exciting to: “I just can’t physically do this.” So if you were jumping into the fray with me, I hope you fared better than I did.
The fact that I could do Freeletics anywhere made me excited. With a convention and a family reunion to travel to over 2 weekends, I figured it would be perfect for my on-the-go schedule this month. I pushed through the first day of week 2, and pushed to the end, but was completely exhausted. I indicated on the app that it was way too hard, and it did adjust the next workout, but sitting in a hotel the night before a convention, staring at my app, I just couldn’t make myself do it. It wasn’t challenging; it was impossible.
Frustrated and angry, I gave myself permission to finish my trips and try again once I got home, but I felt demotivated. I’m now planning on finishing the last 4 days of week 2. I have every intention of finishing it, even if it takes my 2 hours each night. I’m going to go slow, I’m going to take breaks, and I’m going to be very sure not to hurt myself. What I’m not going to do, is give up. Will I do week 3? We’ll see how the rest of week 2 goes. But if week 3 is as bad as week 2, I’m not going to give up Freeletics without something to replace it. I want to get fit, and I am determined to find something that is both challenging and works with my lifestyle.
At this point in my fitness journey, I’m struggling. This year has had a lot of challenges and I’ve been quick to justify and excuse poor choices. But I want this to work, and I think for the first time in a long time I’m in a stubborn enough mindset to make it happen.
I have fallen off of many workout programs over my lifetime. Some after a few months and some after a few days, and that failure has always been enough to knock me out of fitness for long stretches of time. I think with all these 30-day, 60-day, and 90-day programs out there, we feel like failures if we miss a day, or a weekend, or a full week. But life happens, and we have to find ways to allow ourselves to jump back in, even if we’ve backslid a little. Moving forward, I’m determined to continue working out. No matter what form it takes, I want exercise to be a regular part of my life, and that means I need to keep trying things until I find the 1, 2, or 25 things that work for me.
The other aspect of the equation is diet. I’ve said that I was going to re-engage my diet this month, and it’s time to start thinking about my eating habits. The infamous renovation has reached a point where cooking will be possible again, so it will be a lot easier to avoid fast food. After all, I refuse to spend all this money on a kitchen that we never use. So it’s time to start working on recipes that make food fun, but healthy.
My biggest nutrition goal moving forward is avoiding carbs. It was, by far, the most successful diet I’ve been on. The problem was, I went too far. I denied myself all the carbs and just found myself dwelling on the foods I couldn’t have. This time, I will allow myself 1 cheat day a week. That’s my starting point. If I need to be more strict about what I’m eating, I’ll re-evaluate, but right now my goal is to start seeing the numbers on that scale go down.
This past week I hit an all-time motivation low. But when I took a step back to evaluate what my goals were, I realized I needed to stop dwelling on what I couldn’t or wasn’t doing and start focusing on what I could do. These next 2 weeks are about potential, and I’m looking forward to seeing what mine is.
What are your goals for this week? Let me know! If you want to follow me on a more regular basis, if you need someone to be accountable to, or if you want to share your own journey, you can reply to this post or you can follow me on twitter @EpicGrays. Until next time, remember to #WorkOutNerdOut!
Update: After writing this post, I struggled through day 2 of week 2. Again, feeling exhausted and de-motivated, I noticed a little tab at the top of my week’s workout that read:
“The coach will give you exercises, which look impossible and frightening at first sight. Don’t let the high number of repetitions discourage you. Just try to perform the exercises as clean as possible…”
I wish this had been a little more obvious when I started the week. It doesn’t change the fact that the workouts are almost impossible for me to complete, but at least I know it’s working as intended. There is a positive feeling that comes with struggling to the finish line, but I’m not sure it will be enough to continue with the program. Will re-evaluate at the end of week 2. #WorkOutNerdOut, Dragons!